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The strongest are the weakest
It's hard to always be the strong one.
To help everyone in their time of need,
to be the one who doesn't cry,
to be the one that has to keep her head up high
Didn't you know, I'm dying on the inside?
Between fake smiles,
and the painful laughing,
Not once was did I feel it
Don't you know what depression is?
The part of my brain that experiences happiness
- it doesn't connect.
I'm incapable of knowing what it's like to be happy
Sure, you can take pills,
they trick you, make you think you know what happy is
It's all just a farce
I send you happy texts,
I give you needed hugs,
I try to keep you smiling
-every last one of you
But I'm never enough
Do you know what that's like?
To never mean anything to anyone
I stand by all of you,
making you feel better
You think I'm strong because I don't cry?!
Didn't you know that I'm the weakest of them all?
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I just can't
-can't handle the reality
You left me?
This can't be real..
I'm drowning,
stuck in-between two worlds
I don't know what's real anymore
I see this world,
but I can't feel it
Am I really here?
Is this even real?
Where's the relevance?
I thought I was "best girlfriend ever"?
Fuck you and your lies
I fucking loved you..
You can't leave me here
-Like I'm nothing
I meant the world to you once!
Please don't do this..
I need you!
I want to hate you so bad
What you did was unforgivable
I'm so fucking angry!
And I can't hate you?
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Murder me
Hot breaths and deep kisses
We just keep getting more heated
Each time it's a step further
Each time I get more wound
You know I love you, right?
But I saw the look in your eyes
Even through the intoxication,
I saw you change
I can't help you, can I?
Try as I will,
we're stuck in this state
-of drunken tongues rubbing together,
and bodies grinding so closely
I looked forward to those moments,
Hoping someday we'd go to the final level
The level of complete freedom
But I saw you
-well I'm not sure it was really you
We got a little bit rougher
-a tad bit more further,
and you had murder in your eyes
I saw what lies beneath
-the other you,
and now I feel like I should be terrified
All I can feel is horrible for ever starting this
You know I love you, right?
I've never felt such a connection with someone
You are truly amazing.
Everyone has issues
And I'm still here
You know I love you, right?
I was going to let you wrap your hands around my throat..
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Drunk in love :iconwolfdemonlover20:wolfdemonlover20 1 7
Mature content
Diseased and Broken :iconwolfdemonlover20:wolfdemonlover20 2 0
Head to heart
Do things really get better,
or is this just a temporary feeling?
Why does it take so much-
just to make one person happy?
Between the pills,
the self destruction,
the counseling,
and the doctors
Are they really helping you?
Is this all just a lie?
A facade to stop time,
time used to abuse yourself?
What are you to do,
in this world of pain?
Is there really any help for me?
I don't really know what I feel
too distant to tell,
what's reality and mind games.
I can love a person so hard,
and they can love me too
It's only a matter of time.
I'm never enough,
the love slips through fingertips,
like silvers
What can I do,
when I say things
-do things,
for my own self destruction?
There's a hole in my head,
there's a hole in my heart.
Which do I follow,
when they'll tear you apart?
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No cares
I've never felt, quite so alone
I keep giving you a chance,
but you never change
You break my heart continuously,
Not even seeming to break a sweat
I'm starting to think you don't care
I'm always by your side,
but you're never here for me
It's always like this for me
I'm telling you,
how you always-
let me down
You don't do anything other than,
give me a meaningless apology
You just keep breaking me.
I just wanted someone to care,
to listen to what I'm going through
But there's never anyone at the door..
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Can you tell me what are words
What is a meaning?
Can you tell me what are words,
when they don't mean a thing?
And why can't they change the cords
-of life?
I find it hard to understand,
what it means
When everything falls apart
We can't fix the broken,
not when they're spilt in half
Why'd you let it go so far?
Far enough to reach the stars
Unreachable by ones' hand,
falling through your mind like sand
What do I mean to you?
You can tell a person anything,
but do you mean it?
How would I know,
if it's a lie or not?
I wouldn't
And what do you matter in a world so big?
They'll tell you anything
and you still wont mean a damn thing
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Mature content
Baby, I remember :iconwolfdemonlover20:wolfdemonlover20 3 0
I know you can see me,
I'm not invisible
Why won't you love me,
Like I love you
There are plenty of fish in the sea,
but I don't care about them
I only love you,
So please tell me the truth
I need to know, how you really feel
Because I have no idea, what is real
Time keeps ticking,
And I'm still sat here,
Waiting for your answer,
Because I need it
You're an addiction,
A sick one at that,
You aren't good for me,
We're both unwell
You stick to me, like drugs to an addict,
I need you more than most
You're my safe haven,
I can't function, without my daily dose
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Show me the truth
Smiles are broken,
Souls are lost,
People are alone,
We live without cost
Give me a penny,
I'll calm down
Give me a dollar,
I'll mold into you
Never quite happy,
With what I've got,
I continue to ask,
For what I've saught
I'll beg and plead,
Get down on my knees,
I'll cry "Give it to me",
And you'll sigh and hand it over
I'll stare at you,
until you get uncomfortable,
I'll look into your soul,
with my pain filled eyes
I smirk at you,
I've got you where you belong,
You just can't say no,
To someone you long for
Not when they are searching,
Searching for the same thing,
Not when they are looking,
looking for you
Not in a world,
Where people keep taking
Not in a place,
Where no one can look-
at eachothers faces
Hiding in their lies,
Tearing without cries,
Begging without ties,
Taking without sighs
Show me a place,
A place with the truth,
Pull me close,
And tell me you love me too..  
A heart can keep breaking,
For as long as we love,
But if we don't love,
Then we wouldn't feel hurt
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Liars in Happiness
I feel cold often. Like all the warmth from smiles and promises are broken.                                                                                                                        I'm sad, hiding behind false lips and lies.                           
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If it makes you happy
I can hide behind a smile,
I can tell you I'm okay,
I can let you be with someone else,
If it makes you happy
I can miss you-
even when you will never miss me,
And I can try to get over you,
but you're the only thing I love
It may be months since our last conversation,
but I still get butterflies when I think of you,
You may not care for me anymore,
But I love you so much it hurts
I hate remembering you,
the way you laughed,
your smile,
your voice..
It lit up my world
Now everything is dim,
I'm not sure what to do,
I just don't really see a point-
even if it makes you happy
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My illnesses
I'm fading, losing myself
Hating everything I do,
Hating everything about me
Why can't it just end?
I'm relapsing,
My happiness goes just as fast as it comes,
I want it to just stop,
I want everything to just stop,
The fights, the drama, the stress-
the crying, the screaming, the cutting, breathing..
I hate that I want to die..
I want to want to live so badly,
But I just can't..
I was fine for a month or so,
but it's all coming back,
I feel that I'm growing empty again,
I'm hurting myself again,
and even trying to work up the courage to just end it all..
I want so badly not to feel this way,
I fear myself,
I'm so scared..
I don't want to go back to a mental hospital-
but I might have to..
I've convinced myself that I'm fat,
A part of my mind tells me I shouldn't eat,
when I do eat another part of me wants to retch it up
I tried so hard to beat that part of myself,
but I'm slowly giving in..
Please just stop..
I can't keep doing this to myself..
I want the help,
but people tell me I'm j
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I used to suffer with myself,
confidence was a zero,
I thought I had no wealth,
I could never be a hero
I don't know why I ever doubted myself,
Part of being human maybe?
I believe that as people we focus on our flaws-
not to make us feel bad about ourselves,
but to find something that makes us different from everybody else
Beauty and perfection are thought to mix hand in hand-
the definition of society,
But that's not true
No one is perfect,
but every one is beautiful
Behind every smile is an un-shed tear,
Jealousy, anger, sadness,
it's part of being human
True beauty: Is to not be afraid to be yourself,
People will reject you, and make fun of you,
Jealously will overrun them, for they wish they could be true too.
Real people, will accept you as you are,
and love you for being true to yourself
Now that is true beauty.. ♥
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Tell me you love me
A girl can wait for her prince charming,
But what she'll find is quite alarming
Boys will fake love,
And smiles are full of blood
She'll take his hand,
Believe all his demands
He will lead her,
And forever mistreat her
She will love him
-slowly but surely,
And he will lie to her
-easily and purely
Manipulation and temptation,
Running hand and hand
His lies may become truths,
-It won't change anything,
She'll become ruthless,
-wanting nothing less
Arguments will take a twist,
Leaving nothing left but drifts
-of lost kisses and heartbreak
Hearts break, but never mend,
People love, but never again
-make the mistake of trusting
The one who could sing
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A smile of love
You are my heaven
The light that brightens my world
Your voice is the sweetest sound I've ever heard
Your love,
The greatest thing I've ever felt
I love the way,
No matter how sad I am,
You make me laugh, 
A smile as big as the world
A smile of love. 
I've always loved you, 
And I always will. 
No matter what you say, 
I'll always love you more,
Because my love for you, 
Is absolutely unfading,
I could write a million poems of love, 
And it would never be enough, 
There's no way to fully express it,
The love I feel for you.
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working on it still
i'm so sick
oh so sick
maybe a little dirt nap
will do the trick
grown weary of this world
there's nothing left to gain
all around is hanging
my tears and your pain
i'm sick of this world
sick of your tricks
sick of your face
sick of your heart
you'd better just leave
before i tear you apart
:iconskittlezarenummy:Skittlezarenummy 1 3
it's so funny
it's so funny
watch the blood drip
stain my skin
take a sip.
it's so funny
what my friends think
whisper, mutter
i'm bleeding ink.
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Oh Herro :iconbalumixbiffle:BalumixBiffle 7 43 Light up my world :iconskittlezarenummy:Skittlezarenummy 2 8 live in color :iconskittlezarenummy:Skittlezarenummy 1 2 I'm a Pretty Princess :3 :icondarkest-lonely-wolf:Darkest-Lonely-Wolf 3 6 Height hurts.... :iconpureblood-pixie:Pureblood-Pixie 1 2
nagging circumstances
Through the joys you bring to pass
there's that nagging circumstance
that seems to always have a say
that points you in a different way
return to me if you change direction
arid of you and your infection
for love is passion- a lovers romance
kiss of poison at its stance
empty contents that overflow
and then for once ill really know
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Those Who Tempt Fate
I can truly understand the reason why
Romeo tipped the poison to his lips,
Allowed his soul to rise on gossamer
Wings to the clouds of heaven floating
Above his home of fair Verona.
He dearly loved his young Juliet,
The girl who had only seen a petty
Few summers wing their way across
The face of the Earth, who had only
Just tasted what life had to offer.
Dear Romeo did his best to defy fate,
To diverge from the path the stars
Had forged for him, but sadly it was
Not meant to be, for Fortune's will
Cannot be denied by any man.
I can understand the plight of a
Man denied the right to have his
Reason for living. I can understand
The pain of having the cold fingers
Of Destiny pry away all you desire.
Fate is a fickle mistress, and a
Being whose patience is best left
Untempted, for those who tempt Fate
Will only feel the sting of her lash
Across their already broken hearts.
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Breaking to pieces, we're falling under,
Into the mindless pit of disgrace and despair,
Look up to the sky and apologize to the ones who look down on you;
Tell yourself it's all right,
There is nothing to fear,
Entrust your beliefs,
There's no need to be frightened,
Tell yourself it's all right,
There is nothing to fear,
Entrust your Beliefs,
Satisfaction is on the way,
Tell yourself it's all right,
There is nothing to fear,
Entrust your beliefs,
There's no need to be frightened,
Tell yourself it's all right,
There is nothing to fear,
Entrust your Beliefs,
Satisfaction is on the way,
Look up to the sky and apologize to the ones who look down on you.
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.:Jesaray:. :iconpureblood-pixie:Pureblood-Pixie 2 2 .:Wednesday:. :iconpureblood-pixie:Pureblood-Pixie 2 0
Confused about you
Boy you got me confused
Confused about myself
Confused about you
You confused about yourself?
It's hard to watch you
I can't sit back and watch
All these things you do
Boy I may love you
But I can't take this
You're stronger than this  
You know you are
I want the boy back that I miss
Do you remember him at all
He laughed a lot
And I could talk to him
Why'd you leave him to rot
He's gone I fear
And I miss him so
I swore I wouldn't shed a tear
But I have
Many nights I cry for you
I cry because I miss the boy I fell in love with
Not the boy who does the shit you do
I wanna get him back
I wanna resurrect him
See his smiling face
Fill him to the brim
With the love I've kept for him
But I haven't a clue where that boy went
And I'm not sure anymore
If all the time I spent
Looking for him wasn't wasted
Show me it wasn't
Show me you can change
Show me you love me
You say it enough
But I can't see it
I can't tell if it's just a mask
To trick me
So I take on the task
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LLL - The start of the journey
A blur of countryside shot past the window. A sea of green, that was magic in itself, the whole journey was magical. Chocolate frogs were hoping madly about the compartments, enchanted to have one good hop. Flying around, sparks shot across the aisle. There was an  excited rumble of children conversing with those they hadn't seen for a whole summer, a catch up most people could not live without. There was a real sense of community on this train.
Sat alone in a compartment, staring blanking out the window. Pheonix knew that she should be looking for her friends, but for some reason she wanted to just sit there and watch as the world flew past. She knew that soon her friends would find her, but this alone time was what she needed for the time being. Sometimes it was good for her to act like a stuck up bitch.
Pola tugged at her twin's arm. She was bored of waiting for her to finish flirting. Pola's hair turned slowly a dull purple, turning slightly pink, as her annoyance
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goodnight kiss
your kisses were poison,
                        made me nauseous.
                                                left the words in my stomach
                                                                        to sizzle and writhe,
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Hey guys! Incase any of you are actually curious why I'm never around these days, I have several things going on right now.

My fiance dumped me a few months ago, my grandpa died earlier this year, and my depression is at an all time low. 

To be honest I've never actually felt this alone before. I'm to the point where I feel disembodied. Like I know this is my life, the things around me are real, but I don't feel grounded, and this doesn't feel real. Dreams are more real to me..

I'm honestly feeling like I'll never be good enough for anything. I'm moving in two weeks. And I just feel so lost.

You ever just feel like you need to get away and be rescued?


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Jasmine Barnes
United States
Hewwwo, my name is Jasmine. I'm 18 years old. I write both poems and stories. I post my poems on this site and my stories on…

Please read some of my stories on that site ^^
I'm looking for feedback and ways to improve my writing skills.

Please be aware that everything I post is rough, unedited and lacking some detail but I do go back and fix when I have the time.

I'm nice, and very caring. I can be moody but not too bad. I like reading, writing, dancing , singing, and just hanging out with friends and doing random things. I'm pretty outgoing too :3

I am here for anyone who needs someone to listen or to talk to.

If you want to know anything else just ask :)


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isasongs Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fav
wolfdemonlover20 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014
No problem
TheLibertasLeague Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for joining EpicMuse!
wolfdemonlover20 Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013
Thank you for accepting me!
TheLibertasLeague Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Of course!
Jay-M-0321 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the favorite on my poem!

Tell Meghan I said hi :D
wolfdemonlover20 Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2013
No problem. Meghan says she misses you.
Kay-March Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2012
Thank you for the apprecition and fav on my writings. :iconballoonplz:
Feel free to come to my gallery if you feel like it and read some more, you'll be most welcome.
Sealboyno1 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely amazing for the Favourite! Thank you! I shall keep on writing, for these give me inspiration to continue! :dummy:
luckystar1124 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Student Writer
Thanks for the fav!
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